Pondering on a Thursday night..

I've come to two conclusions about my life..all of the really harsh things that have happened and that are going on right now in my life are extremely hard to handle. It's been a bit overwhelming.

The conclusions I've come to are:
 1. It is happening because I'm meant to fail or something is trying to keep me down.

OR (which to me is the better but harder option)

2. It is happening because I am meant to do something phenomenal with my life and right now I'm being emotionally and spiritually preened and conditioned for the moment that finally arrives.

The great people in history, many of them came from meager backgrounds and had many hardships before their "happy ending" came about. In actuality, it really comes down to me making a choice between the two options...meaning am I going to give up or will I press on and accomplish what I came here to do?

I can either give up, throw in the towel..or I can be the heroine of my life and conquer these mountains before me.
...those are the only choices.

Every queen has her rough moments..but at the end of it all she is still a queen.
xM.

The Soul, Fame, the Devil and the whole world

Mark 8:36 For what shall it profit a man, if he shall gain the whole world, and lose his own soul?

I’m usually not one to write about bible scriptures, but I do love a lot about what the bible says even though I also incorporate other spiritualities in my personal belief system. I feel there is a lot to be learned from reading the bible, larger than what it is used for today for religious purposes...if you’re willing to look deeper.

So, here we go with how I perceive the above bible verse. This may not be anything new, but I haven't updated my blog in a looong while and felt like sharing my thoughts. :)

The world…the world means many different things to many different people.  Someone’s world might be their work, or a significant other and so forth and so on. To me a soul is more than simply that invisible but felt part of ourselves that is spirit and eternal. Although that is a very excellent definition, I also feel that our soul is that larger part of ourselves that we give away. For example when you’ve given and given in a specific situation and the receiver wants you to give more. When you are giving to the point of not being able to give to yourself, you’ve lost your soul. This goes for romantic relationships, relationships between families, friendships, work, play..anything really. Losing your soul isn’t always about “selling your soul to the devil”. In a sense you’ve sold your soul to a devil by wanting whatever outcome you want to happen so bad that you lose yourself (your soul) in the process.

The above bible reference, most people take to mean selling your soul to Satan for riches, fame and worldly pleasures. Though that is most likely true to some extent, I believe there is an additional explanation to that particular verse.

“For what shall it profit a man, if he shall gain the whole world…”

Well that would depend on what the “world” means to each person. (I.E. money, girls, guys, success, job promotions, material possessions, unwarranted status or respect for egoic purposes etc) ….

”and lose his own soul?” (time, energy, self respect, dignity, love, sanity)

So for example, when you hear about celebrities, some more than most, having supposedly sold their soul to the devil, it could in fact be the case. However, I believe that in most cases what celebrities have actually “sold” is their precious time, there privacy in their day to day lives, being who they were before they were so widely known, being a punching bag for the world. So in a sense, they have sold all of the above for the status they now hold, not their actual souls. It takes a really strong person to give up all of these things for their dream. I think that fame is not for the weak hearted.

With the exception of some famous people, I do believe that celebrities are normal human beings who had the courage and were able to realize their dreams. Maybe instead of being so obsessed with how they got there, people should applaud the greatness that famous people have come to with their hard work. People should pay attention to their own lives and work on bringing their own dreams into fruition and reach the success they wish for.

Time is being wasted on the subject of soul selling, especially if you’re in the artistic realm.  The clock is ticking on living your life and doing what you came here to do..whatever that may be.

♥ xM.

About Girls/Boys and girls clothes

Wow, my blog is seriously deprived of my attention these days! :O Soo, I thought I'd post something I just posted on my facebook music/artist page (www.facebook.com/mystikjipsy) to share with my blog readers :). Don't forget to come "Like" my FB page if you visit there also! xo ♥ M.

Thoughts today: I think the view of women needing to cover themselves up completely to keep men from "sinning" is the most ridiculous thing I've come across. That is like saying it is a womans fault for being raped, sexually harrassed at work. While I can understand that dressing like a whore is a little over the top, I also think that men who have these "issues" of not being able to control themselves need to take responsibility for themselves. We see so many videos and articles about women and how we need to take responsibility for mens actions with regards to how we look and dress. This is a load of bs.
Why not have articles or videos about how a man should treat women with respect no matter what they look like. This should be a given. But no, every blame is placed on women..since time began the blame has been placed on us regarding how men act or react when we are in the picture. I think the real issue with this is that women are powerful without even having to try, we can just walk into a room and it is felt.
Really the whole "women are to blame" comes from fear, fear of the beauty of women, fear of how we make men feel or think, fear of the potential of what women can do with this power we possess. What it all comes down to is men (NOT ALL) really need to become more comfortable with their maleness and own all of who they are, by taking responsibility for their actions. It is a power struggle. Stop blaming all of feminitiy for the problems (or "sins") you've created in your mind because of your inability to control your own actions when it comes to women.
Women are not responsible for men doing the wrong thing or thinking the wrong thing in their mind, ..no matter how we dress. When you think about it, we could be wearing a large paper bag dress, and many men are still thinking about what is underneath. So you see this issue is not a woman's concern or responsibility. How is it our responsibility to walk on eggshells to make sure men behave?..that is warped. ♥ M.

SHE & HER...

I was having a conversation with an old friend whom I’m no longer

associated with. She mentioned how her ex husband had shorthanded

her of some pictures and videos of her son by only sending a very

small amount..and keeping the happiest moments from her. My friends ex was

also known to have mistreated her verbally and emotionally in the past.

 

Suddenly during our conversation while she was talking I saw her

as her younger self and I "heard" that side of her as she was

speaking coming out.

 

At that moment I became fully aware of the significance of HER.

 

After she finished explaining what her ex did, I began to

tell my friend how it saddens me how her ex mistreated her femininity

and how most men and some women degrade women. Women also

mistreat HER by not treating themselves well, and allowing others

to not treat them well.

 

We are all HER, and She has been so mistreated in every way by

so many different means. From outright mistreatment of females

to the even more subtle way such as downplaying women as being incapable,

unintelligent, less able, worth based on beauty, only good enough to be used

as a sex symbols and women allowing themselves to be used.

 

When a man hits a woman he is degrading and desecrating HER.

 

SHE is more than an outside experience to beckon to.

SHE is me and every other female on the planet.

 

SHE is also in every man who chooses to acknowledge HER, and who

has a deep profound respect for women.

 

All women are Goddesses, and we bring life to everything we touch.

 

♥ Jipsy

Karma: How Thoughts, Feelings and Actions Relate

My thoughts for this Sunday morning:

Creating good Karma with what I'm thinking as well as with what I'm doing is important to me, because what we're doing does not always reflect what we're actually thinking and vice versa. Doing and Thinking have to match for harmony within the self and in life to be possible. Otherwise it turns into a fake representation of yourself, which eventually causes discord within ourselves and in relationships with other people.

 

When there isn't a balance in all aspects of ourselves, then this is why most problems occur. On one level we are not being honest with the people we are interacting with, on another, we are most importantly not being honest with ourselves. We all have within us, some more than others, an ability to sense subconsciously when someone is not being truthful with us. That same ability works within ourselves as well. We can not lie to ourselves about how we are really feeling and thinking even if we try our hardest to portray it otherwise with our actions.

When it comes down to it, honesty with what we are doing, thinking and feeling need to work together, because it is a much more peaceful existence to do that. It is a much “cleaner” way to live.

 

Being honest with how we are feeling and thinking requires responsibility in how we enact them. It calls for diplomacy and maturity, not aggression coming from a place of misplaced pride and self righteousness. None of us are near perfect, but that is not an excuse to abuse our being honest.

 

Life has definitely got ups and downs, however I believe those ups and downs would be few and far between once the equilibrium between our thoughts, feelings and actions are working together, not against one another. I desire and strive to be honest and have a clear conscience in all regards, it just feels like the right way to be and live to create good Karma in my future.

 

♥ Jipsy

Soul Cleansing..

This is very difficult for me to put out there, but it is a necessary part for me to begin healing. It may be right or it may be wrong, but I have to do this even if it's just for myself to get this out of me.

There comes a time in life when all the situations and occurences that have happened to you through the years cause you to have to take a break and really look at yourself. I'm realizing that I have never given myself the attention I deserve. I am not talking about the usual attention we give ourselves like, doing our hair, or buying a gift for ourselves.
What I'm talking about is more of a deeper focus where I am looking at myself in all regards. So many things have occurred in my life and so fast, that I never had a chance to even blink at them. They were like..in and out..zip zoom..and I couldn't/didn't even see what happened to me. Here I am months to years after they've happened and just now feeling the after affects of it all.
Sometimes I get so dark and low, and it feels as if no one really sees the real me..honestly it's like I've never even really seen myself. Until now, I am just now beginning to pay attention to who I am..not Mystikjipsy, but me..Cher Jackson.
I need to and have needed to do this for a very long time..and part of me wants to cringe away from it for fear of being to deep and emotional or being ridiculed for being open and vulnerable.
There is this voice that says "Oh, Cher what is your problem, you're a grown woman, you should be past these things.."
The problem with that is the litte girl part of myself has never been nurtured and loved the way she was supposed to be, so how can the grown woman part of myself even begin to take care of the child when she herself has not learned?
This is what brings me to my current deep soul searching.

There have been many aspects to this search I've been on for the past 5-7 years.

I've been pissed off at the people who have hurt me, really pissed off at God (that one was an extremely hard one for me to even begin to turn around), and even directed misplaced anger at myself to the point of causing myself harm (emotionally) indirectly.
I'm tired of being sad, mad, angry and hurt, I want to get to the end of this chapter and begin a fresh new era in my life.

I'm ready to throw away the blinders that have been acting as a numbing agent...an agent that has caused me to neglect actually looking at myself and all that has transpired in my life thus far.

With that said, I apologize to everyone, my fans and my friends if I've seemed distant or not existent lately. I am still here and there, I just need this time to regroup and get to the bottom of what has been at the back of my mind like a needle, piercing my subconscious. It's time to face the giant.

Thoughts, Gloom and Forced Belief

Although I know it is not forever, today I am just in a deep thought irritated mood. I am usually one who likes to remain positive and try to look at things from a different perspective., and I'm not saying I am not going to do that in the near future. But one needs to feel the full spectrum of emotions, from good to what is considered bad. I prefer to dwell in a full human experience and feel all of what this existence is offering me, whether I want to or not.

One of the things that has been on my mind has to do with all the debate over religion...whether it be Christian, Buddhist, Muslim etc. I've had about enough of it all. Quite frankly the whole topic of religion has gotten on my very last nerve. I just want to escape from the pressure that is put on a person to have to make a decision on which if any religion they want to choose to partake in. I'm so sick of this heavy burden of "you have to choose what you believe or else blah blah blah is going to happen to you".

It is almost to a point where a person wants to renounce ANY AND ALL religion and go live on an island somewhere far away just to be left alone! Why must this question of "what do you believe in, what god do you worship" even be an issue? Really, this whole thing has got to end. It's gotten to the point where we do not even care about a person as a human being, only that they believe and worship the way we do. It's sickening to my stomach, and most repulsive in so many ways and on so many levels.

I am not against Christianity, or Christian beliefs however it disgusts me in everyway when there is this..Christian competition if you will of "my worship is better than your worship". There is this feeling of religious snobbery to any and all people who live their life freely from a spiritual standpoint. If you do not dress a certain way as a female (I will write another blog about being female and the viewpoint of females in society), speak a certain way (and I'm not just talking about excluding curse words), "act" like you have a purity higher than the others in the world who do not believe as you do...and the list goes on...then you are looked down upon and considered unworthy to associate with.

That goes against what I was told being a true Christian is about. Christianity however is not the only religion that this viewpoint seems to invade. It seems there is an excessive amount of picking and choosing going on in religion period regarding how to treat people in respect to whether or not they believe and act like you.

If you want to get honest and look at this entire thing of religion from a complete standpoint, you would have to admit that if Jesus Christ was walking the earth at this very moment he would show love and compassion to everyone and not religious snobbery meant to degrade. That is the person I believe he was...Love in the fullest sense.

I also believe that in order to call yourself a follower of any religion, that's designed and intended to make you a better person on the earth, you must be loving and compassionate to others even when they are different from you.

Many if not most religious people seem to be religious or blindly follow a path, not because they truely believe in what they are following, but because they need a spiritual awning to hide underneath. They are afraid to break out and be spiritually who they really wish to be, and feel they are "safer" if they follow along with others who are just as afraid to take control of their spiritual lives.

♥ M.